Post by ANASTASIA NOEL BATES on Mar 5, 2015 20:56:07 GMT -7
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[presto]  radeo suicide/chelsea vittorio civilian nineteen youtube personality bisexual single quinn [/presto] | FREEFORM APPLICATION "I WAS LOST EVER SINCE I COULD WALK." "my family never had it easy. there were eight mouths to feed on two minimum wage incomes with bills to pay on top of it all. i guess it drove my dad over the edge, because he left one day when i was about five and i haven't seen him since. it was the beginning of a downward spiral for us. the stress of taking care of all of us was a lot on my mom and it felt like i watched her age five years every other week. we always butt heads with each other but i can't deny that did a lot... for a little while. a year after my dad left, a year of doing everything she could, and i guess she cracked. heroin was all she cared about after that; well, heroin and vodka. it was up to the kids to take care of each other. my younger brothers were assholes, they didn't appreciate what our older brothers and sister did for us. i did though. my eldest brother got into a gang, but he made money from it... he never told us how. when i was eight, the state found out about my mom's drug abuse and her child neglect. we were taken into the state's custody and she was supposed to go to jail for a bunch of shit but, last i heard, she was in an mental house. she deserves it." "I HAD A HOUSE BUT NEVER A HOME." "bouncing from house to house while in foster care sucked. if we were lucky, we'd be in a house with each other but that luck was rare. if i could chose any of my siblings to have stayed with, it would've been my older brother oz; we were always the closest. but i found up being adopted with our sister. i loved her and we were close, don't get me wrong, but she and i butt heads a lot. we were too alike in the wrong ways. anyway, that's when we moved to arcadia. i was probably thirteen at the time. it sucked. i mean, i had a roof over my head and i had my sister with me, but i wasn't at home. none of the houses i had been in felt like home, especially not when i was separated from my brothers and sister. my eldest brother hadn't been in foster care long before running away and living with his gang. not long after my sister and i got adopted did we get word that he had died in a gang fight. he had never liked me much, but i felt bad. a couple years later, my she took the same path our brother had and ran off, leaving me to deal with this shit by myself." "I LOST TOUCH WITH REALITY." "my sister abandoning me hit worse than i thought it would. i got really depressed after that and pretty much found myself on my computer every chance i had. i didn't eat much, i rarely slept... instead, i sat in front of that screen with im's pining while i gamed. it was an escape for me, from what i felt and from the pity dane and beth - my adoptive parents - looked at me with... from the world really. i guess i got obsessed, and i started failing my classes. dane and beth got really worried about me, so much that they sent me to get evaluated. it was weird but i guess they didn't find anything too terrible. i was diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder, minor schizotypal personality disorder, and bipolar disorder. later we found out about my blackout rage but that's not something i really like to talk about... anyway, i had failed my sophomore year of high school because of my obsession and depression, but dane and beth knew that i had started a youtube channel where i played video games and it was something i loved. they gave me an ultimatum: make sure to take my meds and get good grades in school, or they'd make me delete my channel. obviously, i did my best to follow what they wanted." "OVER A MILLION PEOPLE LOVE ME, WHY DO I NEED ANYONE ELSE?" "very shortly after i graduated, i moved out. my channel had picked up enough subscribers and views that i got partnered and was getting paid for what i was doing. i had saved up enough to buy an apartment in arcadia and moved in probably a week after my graduation. i cranked out new videos a day and, in my spare time, enjoyed even more gaming. i'm a bit of a hermit, always locked in my batcave of an apartment while i game or sleep. i was never a people person; i have low tolerance for people and used to get in fights in high school... and now, with a million people who've never met me praising my name, i don't see too many reasons to have a bunch of people in my life. i do have a few friends but not as many as most people my age would, especially not if they had the job i do. oh, and dating? well, i guess i've done that, but i'd much rather have a few people in a little black book for a romp under the sheets. as for love, well, i've never been in love with anyone but cloud from final fantasy and leon from resident evil." "SOME OF MY FAVORITE THINGS." "well, you'll rarely find me without a backpack of the things i need and love. like, i always have my keys and phone, obviously. i probably have way too many keychains, and way too many game apps on my phone. but i usually have a hoodie since i pretty much collect those. my nintendo ds and psp because, well, you should have this figured out by now. i always have my zelda wallet and a set of clothes. other than the stuff i carry with me, i love caffine; i'm a legit addict and i get headaches if i go too long without any. tattoos and piercings, and ears that are stretched to just the right size. i love music and dancing, but i dance like a total white girl so there's that. and i love food, even though i really suck at cooking; baking's my strong point, and grilling, but cooking is dangerous with me. while i like both console and computer games, i prefer pc gaming." "YOU KNOW WHAT I CAN'T STAND?" "things i hate, huh? well, for starters, i hate shitty games. they're usually free so i don't care too much but, seriously, have you ever played a game where the controls are so wonky, the plot is ridiculous, and it looks like it was thrown together in ten minutes? ugh, such a pet peeve! i also don't like when i need to buy new controllers, even though it's always worth it since i use them all the time. when guys get overly excited to find out that a girl games or think girl gamers just sit around in their underwear trying to be sexy, i want to punch them in the face. i hate when my car breaks down and i have to sit around a shop for an hour while they try to bleed me dry of money. i don't like kids either. well, it's not so much i don't like kids as i don't know what to do with them and they made me really anxious. i don't like when people touch me without my permission. oh, and i hate when people think they know everything about me! especially fans, oh my god, that pisses me off so bad." |
